I Am So Tired

“I am so tired.” Those were the last words I heard my husband Gene say before he passed away. On many days, those are the first words I hear myself say as I’m waking up in the morning.

Fourteen years and many challenges as a widow. I guess I’m not surprised that sometimes I am so tired.

I’m not a person for routine, schedules, plans, predictability. I’m admit that. But at the core of my being, I am an energetic, optimistic person! So when I hear myself say, “I am so tired,” and when I feel my energy disappearing, and when I let myself get dragged down, I don’t like it.

So what’s the remedy? Glad you asked! Here’s what works for me on a typical weekday. Maybe you’ll find some tips here that will be helpful for you, too.

1. Before I even get out of bed in the morning, I start the day by thanking God for the people he has placed in my life to bless me. My list is long, by the way. I’m guessing your list is, too.

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2. I do a short workout to get the blood flowing and banish the mental cobwebs. My workout of choice is “Classical Stretch” with Miranda Esmonde-White on my local PBS station. She is pleasantly insistent and is in a beautiful location. I find myself smiling and thanking her before the session is over.

"Classical Stretch" with Miranda Esmonde-White 

"Classical Stretch" with Miranda Esmonde-White 

2. As I’m getting ready to meet the day, I tell myself the positives I’m expecting for the day. What I’m looking forward to. What I’m hoping for. 

3. While I’m eating breakfast, I turn off the news and turn on uplifting music. I choose classical music on WFMT because it’s both calming and motivating. Give me a cello solo by Gautier Capucon or a symphony by Haydn to start any day.

Photo by Jordan T. Hansen

Photo by Jordan T. Hansen

4. I take at least 15 minutes to read God’s Word and think about what he wants me to hear. I pray for those I love and pray over my schedule for the day.

Photo by Jordan T. Hansen

Photo by Jordan T. Hansen

5. As I’m driving to work, I sing along with the praise and worship music on Family Radio. I ask God to focus my priorities. I also pray for those people and issues that come into my mind. And for other drivers.

By the time I arrive at work, I’m ready to face whatever the day holds. My attitude is adjusted. My smile is ready. My heart and mind are filled with God’s Word. And I’ve shifted my burdens so that Jesus is helping me carry them.

There are different kinds of tired. As Harry Chapin, one of my favorite singer/songwriters, used to say: “There’s a good tired and a bad tired.” 

For me, the good tired is being tired from doing the things I love to do. It brings some satisfaction with it. It may deplete my energy, but it doesn’t drain my enthusiasm.

The bad tired is the ton of tired that is weighing me down. It’s exhaustion from trying to fight my own battles instead of trusting God to go before me and help me handle whatever comes.

It’s okay to be tired. Just don’t let the bad tired overwhelm you or unplug you from life. Accept the good tired and keep enjoying the days God gives you to live!

Photos by Amy Smith and Jordan T. Hansen

Photos by Amy Smith and Jordan T. Hansen

“You will always harvest what you plant. Those who live only to satisfy their own sinful nature will harvest decay and death from that sinful nature. But those who live to please the Spirit will harvest everlasting life from the Spirit. So let’s not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up” (Galatians 6:7-9).

Laura Warfel is a widow, writer, and follower of Jesus Christ. Her greatest joy is to bring others along with her on her faith journey. In 2015, because of the encouragement of the Launch Out Conference and Jon Acuff, she launched More Than A Widow on Facebook and Twitter. Today she blogs, tweets, and posts to help widows (and those who know them) find encouragement, hope, and resources for the journey. Her goal is to help all widows live beyond the label and live as more than a widow.
Copyright © 2017 by Laura Warfel