Look back. I know. We do that every day. But this time, look back to the beginning. You know. The day your husband passed away. The day you were sure your life had ended, too.
I know. That experience of loss is different for each of us. For some, his death came like a flash of lightning. Splitting what was from what would be in a jagged line.
For others, his death was a slow slide. From diagnosis into debilitation into depression into destruction of all we knew.
Regardless of how the end happened for you, life as we knew it was over. And we could not or would not see what was ahead. We felt stuck in the limbo of half-life/half-death.
When the light began to peek through, at first we weren’t ready. You may have hidden your face in the nearest pillow or buried your reality in the pseudo-reality of media and TV. You may have avoided interactions with people and cocooned yourself in your most comfortable chair. Like I did.
Regardless of what we did for self-comfort and self-reliance, we refused to step out of the dark. Comfortable and pseudo-safe, the dark was better than any favorite quilt or snuggly afghan.
We resisted the opening of the cocoon of grief because the past was so beautiful or so horrible or so damaging or such a messy melding of the best and the worst.
One light always breaks through whatever darkness we try to live in: the light of God’s grace-full love. No cost, but great value. No switch, but always on. No wattage, but stunningly illuminating.
Immerse yourself in God’s light today. Invite God to shine in the darkest places of you. Blessings await.
“You light a lamp for me. The Lord, my God, lights up my darkness. … God’s way is perfect. All the Lord’s promises prove true. He is a shield for all who look to him for protection. … God arms me with strength, and he makes my way perfect” (Psalm 18:28, 30, 32).
Laura Warfel is a widow, writer, and follower of Jesus Christ. Her greatest joy is to bring others along with her on her faith journey. In 2015, because of the encouragement of the Launch Out Conference and Jon Acuff, she launched More Than A Widow on Facebook and Twitter. Today she blogs, tweets, and posts to help widows (and those who know them) find encouragement, hope, and resources for the journey. Her goal is to help all widows live beyond the label and live as more than a widow.
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