Fear splinters beauty, and you don’t even recognize the slivers. You find pieces of yourself wedged in places where they don’t fit. Kind of like a tornado wreaking havoc on an unsuspecting landscape.
Look in the mirror. You see a sharp-edged mosaic with no pattern or purpose. Parts of you are recognizable, but the whole is someone you no longer know.
The enemy needles you with the random wreckage of the former you. Taunts you with tantalizing bits of memory.
What is the way out? What is the way through?
God wants to repair you. He wants to bind his armor around you. To gather and glue the splinters, then form them into the person he created you to be.
God wants to wage war against the enemy on your behalf.
God wants to banish all fear to the corners of the universe. He wants to infuse you with the same power that brought Jesus out of the grave. He wants to lift you up and carry you in your victory parade. He wants to cradle you in his arms as you sleep in peace.
What a process! What an unwelcome, life-altering, pain-to-the-core process. What a life-giving, adventurous, trust-filled process.
And yet, our God does not promise comfort, carefreeness, blissful contentment. He promises to be our comforter, burden-bearer, unending source of our joy and peace. No matter what comes. No matter who assails us. No matter what weapons are formed against us.
God provides the splints to bring your healing. He binds your wounds and dries your tears. He takes your splinters, weaves them with his love and makes them into a stronger you.
Where are you today? Where are you with God today?
Invite him to be your healer. Then allow him to bring your healing. A messy but necessary process to refine the current you.
“Let all that I am praise the Lord; with my whole heart, I will praise his holy name. Let all that I am praise the Lord; may I never forget the good things he does for me. He forgives all my sins and heals all my diseases. He redeems me from death and crowns me with love and tender mercies. He fills my life with good things. My youth is renewed like the eagle’s!” (Psalm 103:1-5)
Laura Warfel is a widow, writer, and follower of Jesus Christ. Her greatest joy is to bring others along with her on her faith journey. In 2015, because of the encouragement of the Launch Out Conference and Jon Acuff, she launched More Than A Widow on Facebook and Twitter. Today she blogs, tweets, and posts to help widows (and those who know them) find encouragement, hope, and resources for the journey. Her goal is to help all widows live beyond the label and live as more than a widow.
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